Release and Begin
Why do we have such a strong pull towards the feeling of participation in other people's lives, even when this need drives us to have less happiness? I know so many people who strive to surround themselves with other people's lives. We do not want to be left out and so spend all our time inserting ourselves and pretending we are a part of others' lives.
Take stock of the people nearest and dearest to you and consider honestly whether they have enveloped you as much as you have them. Are you counting people just to have higher numbers?
Demanding your inclusion, even at the expense of your true happiness, is a common coping tool to disguise a feeling of inadequacy.
If you go through life feeling inadequate of being loved and loving others you will feel forever in need of being included in others' lives. Whether through social gatherings, friends or family you will unconsciously demean yourself by insisting you are closer and more needed than you truly are. You will in turn value the false, imagined concept of being included rather than the real, honest value of being loveable.
Focus on your power to improve, to grow and to be present.
Let go to let yourself be happy. Staying focused on your spark in life and keeping the focus off of believing your loose connections will make you better will allow you to focus in upon the deeper nature of your happiness.